Mentality

16th January


As I got the first step of applying to a university over and passed my German exam, something is lacking. The shortage of something has taken over. Fear of somthing I can't explain to myself.
I watched "Donnie Darko" today. I had better not done it. This strange and popular Hollywood movie is remarkable for its absurd story. You hope until the end that the story will start at last, but it seems it wallows and remains at the outset.
Starring Jake Gyllenhaal as a high-school boy, who is believed has a mental desease. Sometimes it becomes apparent that he is, but then in one minute he turnes out to be a resonable person.

Grandma Death, floods, picturesque siteseeings, visits to a psychiatris...,and a banal, ordinary American life on the other hand. The film contains philosophical questions and answers, which is an advantage, but they aren't obvious...I read a script afterwards to understand some parts, because Donnie Darko doesn't say everything clearly.

  DR. THURMAN

       Do you feel alone right now?

 DONNIE

       I'd like to believe that I'm not...but

       I've just never seen any proof. So I just

       choose not to bother with it. It's, like,

       I could spend my whole life thinking

       about it... debating it in my head.

       Weighing the pros and cons. And in the

       end, I still wouldn't have any proof. So...I don't even debate it any more. Because it's absurd. I don't want to be alone.

         So, does that make me, like, an atheist?

        DR. THURMAN

       No. That makes you keep searching.

Donnie isn't a boy to forget! He makes this film memorable. And life around us - scary...